License to Write

YESTERDAY WAS A BAD DAY!

I have one (or two) of those days every month… where EVERYTHING seems terrible and hopeless and pointless and I feel completely worthless and absolutely incapable of ever succeeding at anything. Yesterday was that day. I woke up, showered, got dressed, and started right in on my writing – only to find myself COMPLETELY unable to make a decision – about characters, about setting, about where to place some reflective thoughts, about how to introduce a character…..

I started taping whole pages together because I just want to see everything laid out in front of me, but then I just had huge strips of paper everywhere – and I got mad about that.

So, I walked away.

I piled everything I’d drug out of my office on the dining room table, stomped around the house a bit, took Pearl for a walk, did all the laundry, washed every piece of our bedding, emptied the dishwasher, gave Pearl a bath, and made dinner.

Still feeling like I’d probably never be able to commit another word to paper and should probably go to Target and apply for a job as a cashier, I decided I would look into the 45-hour post-licensing class I need to complete in order to satisfy the requirements for renewing my FL real estate license.

(I have to keep my license active so that I can continue to earn referral fees from my previous life and sit in the model home in my neighborhood…)

I’ve known about this requirement – oh, for about 18 months – and just kept putting it off.

So, yesterday, I started an online course – which is looking like it will take forever – like, probably 45 hours….

At the end of my 45-hours-worth of material, I have to take an exam. If I don’t pass that exam, then I either have to wait 30 days to take it again OR I can pay another $125 – go through all the online material again and then try again. Regardless, I have to pass the exam in time to renew my license before the end of March. So, that’s getting much of my focus right now – even though I woke up this morning wanting to write:)